I want to weigh hundreds of smiles,
Thousands of laughs,
And the weight of many miles
Traveled across oceans and seas.
I want to weigh the seasons
And feel their heat and feel their cold,
Spring’s biggest blooms
And Autumn’s brightest leaves.
I want to weigh a million words
That tell tons of stories
Messages that need to be heard,
And prayers stronger than worries.
I want to weigh every unit of energy
That goes into every day,
And every day that builds my life.
I want to say goodbye, entirely,
To the gap between my present and past.
I want to weigh the look you give me
That is filled with understanding and love.
I want to weigh more than any scale
Can ever see,
My own beautiful, immeasurable history.
Written by Susanna Lancaster
Emily Estes lives in Lincoln, Nebraska with her Goldendoodle pup, Miss Adley Mae. Recovery from her own struggle with an eating disorder, anxiety, and depression has led Emily to create community and resources to empower others on the journey. Emily owns Sage Nutrition, LLC where she serves as a Registered Dietitian. Her work revolves around her motto that "food is meant to nourish our bodies, not nurture us."